I would love being single. I mean, I must love being single.

I'm not angry anymore, it's been more than an hour, but I guess.. I could not afford another heart break though. Sorry. Your promises are meant to be broken. How can I trust you again? Nobody can get in my way, for now. I'll do whatever I want. Love is a game, isnt it. Im just too stubborn to believe in that. I'm so naive.

Goodbye. XOXO.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM!

Didnt know thick skin guys still fucking exist in this world. He's blind enough not to see that I'm like attached, keep spamming me messages to ask for my number. I'm getting a lil pissed off right now. I rejected him like going 5 times, and his girlf once scolded me for chatting on fb with her 'husband' so I fucking told him that it's better we dont contact. Moreover I've got a boyf. Tsk, fancy him gonna get married to his 'beloved' wife already still wanna hong other girls outside. Zzz, never ever spare a thought for his 'beloved' wife. Tsk.

I think I despise you.

Guys like this are long lived. Yet good guys always die so early.! ):

Have they ever thought of how their partner would think of? It might seem fun, to be having affairs outside or whatsoever. But, it's kind of.. betraying your partner what. Though, to be exact, not having any serious problems but.. he's got the intention of doing that already. And intention means crime. At least to me.

Her pathetic 'wife' is always worrying about bitches who came between them. He is not doing his part as her 'husband'. Fcuk, irresponsible, please assure her instead of keep irritating me for my number.

Karma, my dear.

Why dont guys feel guilty like how girls do, when they are hiding something behind? I'm fucking paranoid again. I have no idea what has gotten in to me. I always blog to rant, then I dont feel much better. Haha.~

I saw the whole conversation which started on 1st Jan till the last one which was 30th Jan. How should I put it? Since I've made my word on forgiving, I wont turn back on my words. Yet, wondering this period of time, what am I to you?

Since the 8th till 30th.!! Is it going to continue if I didnt know.?

Been trying to 'treat as I didnt see'. But cannot stop thinking. What should I do? Please dont take away my right to rant and whine here. Because blogging is the only thing I could turn to. My every emotion.

Probably gobbling up another tub of icecream would work perfectly for me. ;D People says chocolates and ice cream are the best cure for moodswings.

Fuck all this shit.

XOXO,

Baby, I'm back!
I swear this is going to be damn long.

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY!
(Finally can officially go clubbing with me!)

Been through so much. Now its time to learn how to handle your own feelings. You're one year older already, must have more mature thinking. Dont be like how you used to be ya. Love you the most bitch!

Cut hair!

Sucks to be me.


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ENDING WITH MELVIN & RINA! ;D

Will blog when I'm free.

HUH?

I have several convictions of this kind of crime. I could make a cordate cake with strawberries. I can do wonders, I can be your sweetest dream or your worst nightmare. But then again, I never tried being anyone's sweet dreams. I am seriously feeling ruined. Everyone have their own flaws, nobody's perfect. I used to stand so high up now that I've fell to the ground I almost forgot how to stand properly, moreover walk. I've been thinking about various issues over these weeks. Till now, I get no answer.

Life has never been smooth, I accept that but.. why do people always read a book by it's cover. People do change. But if you aren't giving them a chance to, you'll never see it. Why can't people just live in peace? Does it got to do with you when I'm doing something not right? Will you lose your life if I'm not respecting myself? Or do you have inadequate attention? I cant stand your oppressive comments. Quit trying to be a joker. Seriously.

As I was on my way back home on a cab, I thought to myself. Why am I so troubled upon such useless stuffs? Looking at every tree passing by, everyone around have their own story to tell. This should be one of the measliest things I've thought about. Think again.

Measliest? This is fucking affecting my mood everyday. Who would have the ability to reassemble me today? Everyone please stop being small-minded. Spare a thought for me. And everyone else who's involved. You're throwing a bomb into stagnant water. We need some time to think about it.

Cant I lead a normal life just like how others do? Is it just me or you making me feel that you're defaming me. Guess it's all too late, you cant change what's done. You cant make me feel better. I dont hate you. I'm just way too high above you. You prove yourself nothing but just an atom of the entire universe.

Everyone needs someone out there to show concern. Everyone needs a good friend and a good partner or prolly a family. You want many friends and a good partner and big family.

Let's just drop this matter.

I'm never good with words, especially when I'm serious.

I dont feel like a great girlfriend, in fact, I'm absolutely not. I'm fucking hard to please, I dont really know how to understand and give in or whatsoever shit. I've tried to be but to no avail. This is so hard.

I've ever been this great before. Problem dont lies with you. But me. I've been saying for upteen times that I'm fucking insecure because of what happened before. But that does not mean that I cant change. Precisely, so why am I still like this?

This is so hard. I promised you, yet I find this really hard. I'm making a nuisance out of all this. Whinning and ranting everyday.

Seriously who would want a girlf like me. I'll slap him hard and ask him to think again. -.-

Then again, if I dont love you. I wont be as frustrated as how I am now. Alright, enough. I'm grabbing a bite now! ((:

Can you stop doing that before I punch you in the face?

Haha, This phrase damn fucking cute hor. Feel so sick uh, dont even have the strength to take cigg. What happen to me!!? & That insecure feeling comes right back. So what, persistence do no good to ownself. We're humans afterall, every human have feelings.

I think back about you, whether I really love you. I cant find that answer. But if I dont, why do I worry so much about you? A companion or a lover. What's love? Can anyone define love? Sometimes I love you, sometimes I dont. It's better not to meet often incase love becomes a habit. That is not healthy. Absolutely not.

Probably this is the sensitive time for me, like again. I always breakup at this point. Zzzzzz! Dorothy please go and die.!

What I want is simple. I just need stable life, not like what I have now. Totally rubbish.

It's hard for me to handle when you are so different when you're with friends. Guess I have to get used to it. (: This equals to I lost all freedom again. Why I'm always contradicting myself. Being single feels great to me now. Being in a relationship used to be cool when I'm single. Haha, like fuck lahs. I cant have both in the world though. Give up that fucking thought girl.

I must know whether I really love you. Or is it just infatuation. This is so hard.

http://singaporeseen.stomp.com.sg/stomp/sgseen/this_urban_jungle/307488/14yearold_openly_welcomes_vulgar_comments_in_blog_shoutbox.html
That guy is on stomp man! HAHA!!!!! The blog link I gave in my last post. Well, I was browsing through this afternoon and now he closed his blog and deleted all post. He apologised. o.O

When you go back to the old link, it's the apologies. He changed his link to..

http://borntobeguailankia.blogspot.com/

This is the conversation between me & my bro when we're just beside each other.

Willy Yap says:
jiao na xie pen you

♥Yumiko Mika says:
what the fuck you want?

Willy Yap says:
all
be
chick

♥Yumiko Mika says:
knnbpcb

Willy Yap says:
my gf
break with me
emo
D:

♥Yumiko Mika says:
your mother's problem lah!

Willy Yap says:
emo
emo
LOL
my mother
ur mother

♥Yumiko Mika says:
Then dont say my mother hor.!

Willy Yap says:
u say my mother first
this 0. wat

♥Yumiko Mika says:
nb
your mother behind me only. dont force me to slap her!

Willy Yap says:
u try lor
omg
my gf
D:

♥Yumiko Mika says:
your girlf i kidnapped her and throw into sea already

Willy Yap says:
break le

♥Yumiko Mika says:
good, i ask bangalah rape her. you dont mind right?

Willy Yap says:
she inside sea
bangala cannot swim

♥Yumiko Mika says:
Can. Bangalah always swim in grass jelly water
Teehee

Willy Yap says:
kp la

♥Yumiko Mika says:
cb, you not happy just come lah!

Willy Yap says:
where

♥Yumiko Mika says:
BlkXXX Bedok Reservoir Road #XX-XXXX, my room
postal code 470XXX
Later I wake up then we settle

Willy Yap says:
i now knock u can?

♥Yumiko Mika says:
you very long never see phone fly into your face liao hor

Not good!

Precisely, everything is not good for me right now. Life kinda sucks more than ever. When am I going to do up everything? Sighhhh. Everything just dont go smoothly. New years resolution is to become rich. HAHA! Yeah, as if I could when I'm not doing anything now. ):

www.born-to-be-guailankia.blogspot.com
This is super interesting man! Teeheee!

Fuck this world. !!

What should I say at this point of time. Been through so much till now, couldnt feel the pain. The exciting feeling of, getting angry. I'm totally not amazed. You could say i'm used to it. Oh fuck, whatever.

Conclusion of this is, i believe that is not one of your whoever.

I'm just upset upon why I couldn't feel the sadness when I realized that.... Holy shit. Blabbering rubbish now.

Just tolerate with my rantings. I always rant alot.

Perhaps, it's just me. Or is it you that make me feel this way. If you ask me, i would say i'm too sensitive. But.. Who knows. It might be you. Good things dont last long applies to every relationship i put effort into. So, it doesnt really bothers me alot. It's time for me to grow up and think sensibly rather than shouting at everyone like a mad woman.

I trust everyone, and thats what brought me down. I never got to stand up. Everyone's stepping over though. I dont really care, for i'm someone with high self esteem. Thats the second reason that leads to my downfall. Overconfidence.

We're born to await death. Why let small things bother you.? The fact is, you're born alone and you'll die alone. If you dont overcome loneliness now, then when?

Yeah, dorothy is nagging at those useless bullshit stuffs all over again, tsk.

Kinda.. Sucks. This kind of break bond, break trust.. Shit stuffs. I am the strongest girl on earth. Almost nothing can kill me. Kill me as in.. My.. Soul?

Trust is, not caring whatever that person does. In a nice way, believing that he/she wont cheat on you. The fact is, when you totally trust someone = you dont fucking give a damn to him/her.

Live or die, make your choice. Haha. Fuck you, seriously should i get a prompt answer or talk to myself everynight in search for an answer.

Whats the diff between single and in a relationship when you cannot even.. let someone believe in you.? I'm so fucking random. Hope to get drunk and die on the streets now. God bless. XOXO..

Lunar

I never die for a man and never will.

Bird Thongchai Mcintyre.

This is one song I heard from young.






If only he is not gay.! If I could have just a dinner with him. Lol. Okay, stop dreaming.

Nice :D